I feel your pain deeply as I have experienced my own.

For me it all began when I was 20 and gave birth to my first and only daughter. I suffered greatly from postpartum depression, but back then there wasn’t a name for it, or any resources to help me through it. I fell into a deep hole of depression and anxiety, suffered many sleepless nights, and struggled to understand how I could care for this beautiful creature when I could hardly care for myself. It was at that young age I reverted to the habits that my mother showed me when I was young. Burry all my feelings, refuse to show weakness or express any of my pain. On the inside I felt extremely insecure, depressed, anxious, and afraid, but I refused to show the world any of this. To everyone else who knew me, they saw a strong, capable woman and mother. Why? Because that is what I showed them. I wore a mask and pretended to be someone I was not because I didn’t know how else to be. For over a decade I struggled internally, and although I tried so many different forms of physical, mental and emotional healing including psychotherapy, massage, and bodywork, Reiki, EMF balancing technique, etc. it wasn’t until I took my 200 hour Yoga Teacher Training with the Awaken Love Yoga School that all the knowledge I had absorbed over the years finally became embodied. The combination of everything I learned above helped me tremendously, and although yoga allowed me to integrate it all, each had its own incredibly transformational elements to them. 

When I first realized how much I was struggling, instead of doing the deep inner child healing I needed, I dedicated my energy to trying to solve everyone else’s problems instead of my own. When I took my Yoga Teacher Training it finally clicked that I needed to turn my attention inward. That started a radical self-healing journey, and I haven’t looked back. Yoga allowed me to ground all the knowledge I gained elsewhere and I was finally able to apply it and integrate it into my own everyday life. Some of the most profound things I have learned and healed in my life are rooted in the realization that everything starts with ME, within ME. That level of personal responsibility opened a door to deeper more profound healing and living. As I dove deeper into my Yoga training, my intrigue with the chakras and energy centers expanded tremendously. I began immersing myself in the concepts and applying them to my everyday life. As each chakra would open and rebalance I saw tangible results in my day-to-day experiences. Understanding the power of the chakras was the key to my next level of transformation and has become one of my greatest passions to share with others.